July 19, 2009
I noticed something. Most of my mailboxed get about get fewer than a couple of peices of spam to the spam folder every day. One mailbox rarely gets less than 15. It seems odd because I almost never use that mailbox other than correspondence with a couple close friends ever so rarely. The other boxes I use for dozens of things including signing up at any number of sites, some of which are a little suspect to say the least. Then I remmebered my seven year labor of...well I guess there was some love involved, but mostly boredom. I was about to log-in as I haven't in a long time and alter the html one last time in order to save myself from the spam I have to clear out all to often. My eyes was drawn to the bottom of the page where there is a little rainbow colored square at the end of each post. Curiosity forced me to click on it to see how often a googled term had led someone to my page or whatever in the year-plus that I have not been here. And then I saw YOU were still checking in from time to time. Who are YOU?
Once upon a time I thought you were Isabelle, considering the IP was coming from France and that was her native language. I have come to learn that Isabelle does not exist and she never existed. I was relieved to learn that I did not let a friend die. I had hoped that you would get the courage to say something someday, but honestly I was too concerned with the ins and outs of my real life to worry about who was reading what I wrote here.
But the curiosity has gotten the better of me now. Who are you? Do you really live in France? How well do you speak English? Do you know me on any other level? Why are you so interested in my writing? I am dying to know any and all of these things. Tell me something. At the top of my page, there is a link to my e-mail. Click it. The e-mails come straight to my phone, so I am certain to get them. I just want to know why do you care.
Do you want a brief update on things?
Well not a lot has changed. I am still me. I am a little more sound mentally and emotionally than I have been in the past. I have largely carve my life down to little bite-sized peices that I can handle with ease. I float between being pretty happy and occasionally just kinda numb. I am more up than down these days.
My Ate got married. He is a real cool guy who she has known for quite a while. For some reason I cannot remember his name in the moment though. My brain is not so good now. There is some doubt that it has ever been very good Anyway, she is really happy and I look forward to them being married for a long time. I am looking forward to my little neice/nephew coming along.
Paleface got married about a month after Ate. Well of course there were mixed emotions on that one, but Maria came back into my life shortly before and she was such a great emotional support during that time when I needed it most. Paleface is very much in love and very happy and is moving forward with tons of plans, so I cannot help but take a little joy in these developement.
Family is family. Friends are friend. Work is work. YR came back too. The initials are different now. I honestly do not know what they are now. I have not talked with her much. We're good though.
Okay...that it that. Hey YOU....reader from France...I am talking to you. E-mail me. Tell me somthing. Tell me anything.